Some days you're managing your complex PTSD quite okay, then you slip again... Everything feels like you are going backwards, all your cPTSD symptoms flare up and it feels like this’s never gonna get better for me, I’ll stay on this crazy roller coaster forever...
This was happening for me too and just recently again, even though I’ve been working on learning ways to manage my cPTSD for over 15 years now. Why?
The last few years I was doing really really well. I was so happy, as I tapered off all my medication last year. So, here I was coping really good, but then last month I wasn't doing all that good…
People often don’t realise just how much determination, persistence and courage is required to re-wire our brain after all the damage from the complex trauma
So, I was a touch cranky with myself and the process… (And just how quick do those demons within get loud and we start beating up on ourselves… Did you know that our inner critic triggers the release of the same neurotransmitters as a fight/flight response?)
Here I am doing all these videos, telling you guys how things will get better… and then things are going backwards for myself.
After a little deep honest reflection, I knew why… even if I don’t really want to admit it. But the reason I wasn’t doing so well is because I started to skip all my routines - all the basic stuff...
(Ok, I admit, for many years in the past I denied that these basic things would have any impact on my life. After all, I have cPTSD – I’m ruined…)
I guess we need to “test” every now and then that those basic routines actually really have a beneficial effect for us or not 😉
Some of my routines are:
All these seemingly little things…
I guess it goes to show how important it is that we get the basics right.
When you’ve had complex trauma, it can alter the way our brain functions, everything is dysregulated to the point that we may struggle with detecting or sensing when we
all this is meant to happen “automatically”, but with complex PTSD all these functions are disrupted.
By me having these really structured routines, I could somehow overcome these shortcomings.
So I thought I share this with you guys, just to remind you how important it is to get the basics right 😊 please learn from my mistakes 😊
Like I said the food, the exercise, meditation, and sleep etc, when I skipped on those routines, managing my day to day things and my PTSD symptoms become extremely difficult.
This was quite a lesson for me and to symbolise that I have changed, that I am a new person who makes healthy choices for herself, I cut my hair 😊 I guess it’s a symbol that a new chapter in my life has begun. I’m not going back to those "old me habits"…
I guess, from time to time we have to change them slightly as we outgrow them 😊
As always, I love hearing your thoughts on this as well. What routines do you've in place that make a difference for you?
Sending you lots & lots of love and rainbows to brighten up the tough times just a little
Click to get access to this FREE training webinar, where you'll learn what life with cPTSD is like and how our trauma affected our brain function, the cPTSD recover map, etc...
and some other goodies from time to time :)