How come we can't just say: “hey, stop that's not OK for you to treat me like that!”
Let's explore that a little bit…
It's really difficult for us to stand up for ourselves in such a way, because we're so *used to* being treated like that from childhood.
Now in adulthood, the very signs of a toxic relationships, like when someone:
… it just kind of feels *normal* and kind of validating what you’ve heard & experienced so often in your life.
It’s hard to know what to expect from a health relationship and feel worthy of such, when no one was ever there for you growing up.
The more we feel that way, the more we put up with abuse...
Sadly, we not just put up with it - we all feel like we deserve being treated that way. We feel unwanted and unlovable...
Because of all the attachment trauma, our beliefs and behaviours are somewhat twisted. We had to do this in order to survive!
We won’t go into details about attachment theory here, but I’d like to mention a concept called “The circle of security”. This explains how a child with a healthy attachment figure in their life, goes out to explore and then returns to that secure base (nurturing caregiver) when distressed, to regain that sense of safety.
Here's a blog on attachment trauma...
That sense of security/safety we need our whole life to have those deep meaningful friendships or relationship. So, this isn’t just something specific to children.
That's what most of us didn’t experience though, hence we struggle with safety and trusting. And live with fears of abandonment and rejection...
We know that we need this sense of safety and also attachment or sense of belonging lifelong.
Ok this is where toxic people hook us…
In toxic relationships:
You want to get back to that secure base IMMEDIATELY
That's exactly what toxic people will give you in their twisted way by:
Things become very twisted when the very same person is life-threatening and your saviour as well. This double roll creates the most strongest bonds.
In their sick way, they safe you from their abuse.
Similar, most of my abuse was by groups of people. And often the leader of a group, is the person who initiates all the abuse, encourages it and determines the length etc of the abuse. Again, the one person creating the threatening situation, is the person pretending that they safe you by calling it off just in time… which creates a wicked strong bond…
… psychologist refer to this as the “Stockholm Syndrome”
You get really drawn to that person, this strong magnetic pull…, because
Toxic people play on that need of safety, hence it’s so hard to get away from for us who haven’t experienced healthy nurturing relationships, safety or unconditional love.
These are just a couple of reason why it is so difficult for us to get away from toxic relationships.
It's really difficult to explain to people who have never been in such a position – It’s a really strong magnetic pull and it really feels like you can't get away from that person. For many of us it means that we need professional help, advocates, police… etc to get away safely…
I needed a ton of professional help. Please don't be afraid to reach out. Remember reaching out for help is a sign of courage.
Please share your thoughts on this too. Always love hearing from you guys 😊
In the meantime, sending you lots & lots of love and rainbows to brighten up the tough times just a little
Here's a webinar where I discuss 3 x isolation hooks, the underlying belief system and some actions we can take https://www.tanjawindegger.com/isolation-webinar-complex-ptsd
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